eGo MaNiaC

I don't have enough guts to share my problems with people. You know, mengadu masalah.. dlu, I used to mengadu my problems to someone close. Then after something bad happened, I don't have the guts to bg taw sesape what is my problem.. Kalo ltak kat blog ni pon, bknnye ade org bc kn..
okayh.. Problem die is we live in the same building.Same faculty in fact.. I think in my situation, after being treated like a moron, I'm the one who should be angry.. okay.. I dont know what's her problem.. mcm nk ngelak plak jmpe aku.. igt kn nk ngelak sbb rse brsalah.. but, I dont think rse brsalah 2 wujud dlm diri die.. You know why i said so? Kalo ktorg trserempak pon, aku ni die buat mcm halimunan.. dgn membe sblah aku bleyh huu haa, huu haa.. ngn aku buat muke... then bile aku senyum, lg buat mke.. damn stupid ego maniac.. aku xbleyh nk kate ape.. kalo x tego pon, at least bile aku senyum x yah la buat mke yg die tuhh konon poyo nak mampus.. kadang2 rse mcm nk kua gak drpd organization ni.. tp ble mengenangkan penat lelah, ape boleyh buat.. aku x ske seseorg yg brpangkat, tp ego tiggi mggunung.. kalo anda brjawatan tnggi, semua yg anda tindakan anda betol? mcm tu? and then kalo anda buat salah skali pon, x boleyh nk mnx maap atau brmanis muke dgn org bwhn? mcm tu? mungkin luaran atau org yg xde masalah dgn die akn kate pimpinan die bagos.. You don't know her , people.. I was once blind.. but know.. I don't know what to say.. I'm fucking frustrated when i saw that damn stupid ego maniac face..


"Let gone be by gone. "
membe aku ckp td.. igt sng ke? it hurts.


I've got an interesting idea. the idea is simple. senyumlah.. senyum itu akn mengelakkan diri anda dari diperkatakan berlagak sombong.. siyes.. i've been through it... okay.. the situation happened early in the morning.. when I saw one of my friend (she's not in my course).. okay, i smiled, waved and said "hi"... three simple elements that you will do if you meet your friends : smile, wave, say "hi".. if we hate someone so much, at least smile back.. c'mon.. i mean i looked like an idiot when she didn't say anything, smile or wave back.. in fact, she turn and make that stupid sombong face.. how awful is that?! huh.. tuhh blom lagi kalo ade jawatan tggi cket ke.. ni da POYO semacam ble jmpe org.. anyway, my prinsip is, when people smile at us (even though we hate her/him or we don't know her/him), we smile back.. don't you know that senyum itu sedekah? when we meet peolple, even we don't know her/him, we should smile... that is the least that we can do.. I don't know what she think if she read this blog.. hopefully she will read it.. so that boleyh la sedar diri siket.. kat UTM ni kite same2 student.. there is no right for her to become stupidly sombong to the other.. even if, I repeat, IF she have any other jawatan kat mane2 organization kat dalam UTM ni pon, she have no rights to become sombong.. hey, I've got kwn from MPP UTM laaa.. c'mon.. boleyh brtegur sape.. siap tego aku dlu... stakat dgn perangai sombong tuhh, x pegi mane nye pon.. kalo die ank buah yg kene pimpin, xkn nk sombong kot?? huh? tryla to be sombong to your anak buah if you have any jawatan at all.. you'll lost their respect.. and nobody will wants to be under your leadership if you are sombong.. the fact is, after what she did to me, she has lost my respect.. if she have any jwtn or wht, i'll follow her order BUT the respect from me to her does not exist anymore..

Don't miss your chance

I just finished having a little chat with my classmates. Lysa told me that she's writing something on her blog. Bright idea. I should do the same. Yet I don't have single freaking idea what to write about? Damn, where's the idea? C'mon. Think. Think. Think.
Okay. Here it comes. It was 2 days ago, on Wednesday. I was supposed to meet Lysa at the Wangsa Maju Train Station. I was on my way to get the train. Then I saw a guy who caught my eye. It's not like he's hot or what? His face seemed familiar. He's my schoolmate. Back in the school, we never speaks to each other. Then, to conform that he is my school mate, I take a sneak peak to look at him, while waiting the train. I try to look again and then he turned back at look at me. That face shows "she's my school mate.", I bet you he was saying that when he looked at me. Too bad his train arrived and we are going on the opposite direction. Urghh.. I wish I was on the same train with him, so I can do this, "mcm kenal la? dlu skola Pdang Tembak kan?".. Yeah, I wish. LOL. Then,my train arrived. As i was standing waiting for the door to open, there was a guy inside the train who was waiting on the same door.He was inside and I was on the outside confronted on each other on the same door. I knew him. He's my schoolmate. And I was "What should i do?". Well guess what? I do nothing! damn~ then took a seat. I saw another guy. He was my school mate too. My phone rang, it was Lysa. As I talked to Lysa, I looked at him and he was looking at me too. I know he knew me. It's just he was going out from the train and the train moved away. I think if we were in the same train, I'm sure we will have a small chit chat. Damn it!! I miss a lot of chances on that day!